I'd Kill Myself For You's desolation [here's to||cheap sex||and codeine] I'd Kill Myself For You Busted scars --//^//-- cut wide open Bleeding hearts --//^//-- drip to the floor

So Guilty, So Weak, So Lost Without You, But Now I'm Found.... [5 Mar 07||2:06am] I'm So Fucking Confused.... You're Here.... But Really Your Not... Your Mine... But Your Not... We Act The Same... But It's Not... We Do The Same Things.... But It's Not The Same... You Make Me Think Everythings Okay... But I Know It's Not.. I Come Home Thinking You Will Be There..... But You're Not.. You Tell Me You Love Me.... But I Know It's Not The Same Love... You Call Me Babe And Bub... And I Get Excited... But I Know It's Just What Comes Out.... I Think I'm Not Gonna Get Hurt... But Of Course I do... I Ask You Things... You Answer.. I Act Like It Doesn't Hurt... But It Does, More Than Anything... You Make Me Smile, So Much... But Somehow I Always Frown... You Act Like We Are Together... I Think We Are, But I Know We Aren't... I'm In Denial, And You Know That... But You Still Make Me Feel Like We Are Together... You Buy Me Stuff That You Only Think Of... And I Think You Will Be There To Share It With Me... But You Aren't... I Know I Hurt You In The Past... You Know How Sorry I Am... Maybe It's Just Takes.... For You To Do What I Did... You Know That It Was The Worst Mistake I Have Ever Made... But, You Are Still Hurt.. I Understand Completely... Do What You Have To Do.... Just Dont Lead Me On... I Say Things When I'm Angry That I Don't Mean... But So Do You.... Why Do You ALWAYS Take Mine So Seriously..... You Know I Always Regret It, Or Dont Even Mean It... You ALWAYS Tell Me You Were Just Mad... And You Didn't Mean It... And I Say I Know... But You Think I Was Serious When I Said Stupid Shit... You Know I was Just Mad... You Know Thats How I Am... Thats How Both Of Us Will Always Be.... Your Family Hates Me... And You Hate Mine.. You Think I Hate Your Family... Well I Do, Except Your Two Sisters...And You Know That... You Tell Me To Change... But When Will You.... I Think It's Gonna Work Out In The End... But I Know This WHOLE Thing Is Temporary.... I NEVER Wanted This To Happen You Put Words In My Mouth, I Know You Will Never Believe That... But It's True... I NEVER WANTED THIS TO HAPPEN!!!!!!!! its so complex

My Baby Girl [21 Sep 06||11:59am] R.I.P Cozy You will be missed dearly I will never forget you You were the best pet anyone could ask for I love you baby girl <3 its so complex

.The tremble of your soul injects fear into my heart. [19 Jul 06||10:39pm] No story book ending for this fairy tale of you. Just the one composed with blood taken from your pen that you hold in your lifeless hand. This is your freedom in a life of fallacy, With no last kiss and no regrets You don't deserve good bye. [Did you ever look, did you ever see that one person, And the subtle way that they do these things and it hurts so much] This table for one has become b e a r a b l e. I now take comfort in this, and for this, I cherish you Just say you would do the same for me... Standing so close knowing that it kills me to breathe you in...... 3 pulled the trigger| its so complex

what the fuck was i thinking? [ killing time | laugh at me while i burn in ecstasy. ] [ smell the rose | poetic madness ]